I'm tired

You know, I'm tired of being your friend.

I'm tired of being the good boy, the nice guy. I'm tired of being told, “you're so naive”.

I'm tired to be only one who seems to care about you, and your well-being. The one that is always there to offer you a hand when you need it most. Your best friend.

I would rather be the asshole. The jerk that doesn't care about you or your feelings. The one that only tells you lies to get you in bed.

Just for a change, I would like to be the one who cheats on you. Not the one that has a shoulder for you to cry when you've been cheated.

I would rather be that guy who, even when he has a girlfriend or a wife, is able to seduce you to have an affair. And not the one that helps you afterwards to deal with the moral dilemma.

I would rather be the friend, but the “not so good friend”, so it's ok to sleep with him because you don't really care about his feelings. Instead of the real true friend, the one that you wouldn't like to hurt.

I would love to be the guy from your fantasies. The one you really like, but that couldn't care less about you or what you feel about him.

I would rather be any of them. Because, at least, all of them got what they wanted from you.

And don't say sorry. You haven't done anything wrong, and there is nothing you can do either. I'm not your type, you don't like me in that way, you don't find me attractive, you think I'm not a good kisser.

Well, I know, shit.

And please, stop saying that you will never find someone who really loves you and cares about you. It really breaks my heart.

For a change, I would like to be the one who is able to break yours.